1 Corinthians 2:9-

9 However, as it is written:
   "No eye has seen,
      no ear has heard,
   no mind has conceived
   what God has prepared for those who love him"— 10 but God has revealed it to us by his Spirit.
      The Spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God. 11 For who among men knows the thoughts of a man except the man's spirit within him? In the same way no one knows the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God.

i don't know what God has in mind for my life. i can't try to figure things out. he will reveal his spirit to me day by day, and in his timing. there's no way i can try to begin to conceive what he wants for my life and what he has already prepared for me. he already knows where i'm going to end up with my career, he knows who i will eventually marry, he knows where i will live, etc etc.... for now, it's just hard because i almost feel left in the dark...but i know that he is a light to my path and that as long as i keep my focus on Him, as long as He is the center of my life... every area of my life will fall into place. i just can't wait to see where I end up... where He brings me... once again, it's the waiting that is so hard.

Currently Listening Phil Wickham By Phil Wickham see related

I will wait for You there
Down on my knees where I met You
Give You all of my cares
Find a grace to hold onto now
I’m calling for You

I will wait for You there
far from the world and it’s violence
It left broken and bare
I need to hear You in the silence now
I’m calling for You

And with outstretched arms
I will sing out melodies
And my beating heart
Will pour out a symphony
Hallelujah’s in the morning
Hallelujah’s in the night
I will wait for you as long as I have life

I will wait for You there
Down On my knees where I met you
Cause life is a war fought with tears
But You are the strength I hold onto now
I’m calling for you

And with outstretched arms
I will sing out melodies
And my beating heart
Will pour out a symphony
Hallelujah’s in the morning
Hallelujah’s in the night
I will wait for you as long as I have life

It's the Most Wonderful Tiiiime of the Year...

yeah. i can't believe that Christmas is a week away.

and i JUST started doing my shopping today. went to the mall....mad house citayyy.
it kinda sucks that i can't even buy gifts for as many people that i wish i could...
that's what happens when...you're broke. hah. o well. maybe i should get a job over winter break.
working one day a week does NOT cut it.

i want it to snow. i really do. i love snow!
my 21st birthday was great. went to the city with a few good friends.
took a limo...they gave us a free upgrade to a 20 person Escaladeee! (and there were only 6 of us!) it was sweet.
we went to dinner @ The View (which is all the way at the top of the Mariot Marquis and overlooks Times Square and slooowwwwly spins around....very slowly. then we went and saw the tree.  good times.

then like 50 people came over saturday night for a birthday party. it was alot of fun.
i am blessed to have such wonderful friends who care about me. <3

Currently Listening How the Lonely Keep By Terminal see related

do you ever have a dream that is so beautiful that when you wake up... and realize that it wasn't real... it leaves your heart feeling sad all day, from that moment on?

i had one of those last night. i can not remember the last time i had one that left me feeling like this. it has definately been a long time.